I am better.. lol

Ok after my hissy fit in my last post I am doing so much better :O)

I did a lot of searching on the net and found a nice chat for Children with Diabetes...and where they ever helpful!!! I think now I might have all the papers I will need to get Samantha's school off their behinds!! I found out how to make a 504 plan something set up by the state that they HAVE to provide care for my baby...they want me to come up to the school 2 times a day everyday something I cant really do after the baby is born. I figure I will go to the school for a week and train these people and just kept throwing papers at them if need be...lol For once I don't feel so lost and helpless when it comes to the school.

I am even getting Chuck to do more I am not giving him much of a choice I am just giving him her insulin pen and telling him how much to give her..and Samantha is checking her own blood levels now and wants to start doing her own shots with that cool new pen she has ...every bit helps believe me! She is trying to learn and do things for herself after she got a letter from her new pen pal who is the same age told her that she started doing her own shots a week after she found out she had Diabetes. When we go shopping Samantha is so funny she looks at all packages to tell me how many carbs is in this or that then if she thinks the carbs are low of course she will ask me to buy it..lol got to love it. Its just so nice to see her trying to take part in her health care...the better she does the faster she may be able to get the pump. That's her real goal.

As far as me I am TRYING to slow down a bit but its not easy when you use to overdrive. I still have to get up at 2 am to test Samantha's blood and wake her up by 7:20 every morning for school... can we say not much sleeping, guess I 'll be use to it by the time the baby gets here I wont be sleping then either...lol. Since we have been home from the hospital I have not been home all day once, I am either at the school, store, Dr's, dental visits, which by the way I have 2 more going tomorrow and after that I have to take Samantha up to the hospital for a special test...praying this test comes out saying she has, not type 1 diabetes and its not really type 2 the Dr called it in between 1 & 2 Diabetes if she has this she would be able to take oral meds and not shots...PRAYING hard!!!!!

I think after tomorrow I might not have to do as much running..YIPPIE

I am getting pretty big, I went bowling today and everyone there was asking me when I am due thinking it was soon I kind of got shocked looks when I told them I am not due till Dec 10th..it was funny to watch their eyes pop..lol

This little guy is getting pretty active in there when I have a few seconds to sit down and notice. I am going to have to try and find time in the next few months to go car seat shopping...wow this is going to happen sooner then I think isnt it

I'll try and post the outcome of my meeting with the school...this should be fun.

Here is Samantha on her first day of school

Ahhhhhhhhh

I dont even know where to start. Its been a week since Samantha got out of the hosp she is doing very well so much better then myself. I always thought of myself as someone who could hold a lot together but I dont know any more I feel like I am being pulled in so many ways and everyone wants something. Its really starting to wear on me. Trying to remember to make appointments and to get them all on different days so not to over lap, to remember Samantha's shots on time, planning meals, figuring out her carbs, and oh those lovely 2 am blood checks.. I am not complaining about taking care of my daughter its just that I am doing everything myself while everyone else acts like things are the same old way here.. That mom will do dinner, laundry, shopping, cleaning and take care of Samantha while they play on the computer goes to school going to work, goes out with friends or what ever else they do. I worry that when I go some place I need to be home by this time or that, that when I do go out to bring all of the stuff Samantha might need to be checked, it just on my mind all the time and it seems that its not any anyone one elses. I am starting to feel bitter over this bear hunting trip my husband has coming up 8 more days its the only thing on his maid and the only thing he does anything for. It just makes me think wow you get a break from daily life to relax to be with the guys..that will not happen for me for a long time I worry that when I go into the hosp to have the baby who will take care of Samantha I cant trust her dad not right now he never has counted her carbs or planned a meal. yea he knows how to total up her carbs and to add the blood sugar and how much insulin she would need and how to give a shot but thats about it he doesnt know what kinds of things to give her or how to plan for meals or what to even give her for snack and why sometimes I give certain kinds of snacks and just think I have a little less the 3 months to TRY to get him to do these things. The school that one I dont even want to talk about right now makes me mad even thinking about it.. and Monday I get to have round 3 with them.
I guess right now I am just having a petty party for myself god thing I am the only one invited to this party..I just need things to slow down to have a day I dont have to see a Dr not one of mine, not one of the kids no one in a white coat, a day not to have to run up to the school, a day not to have to run up to the store for just one thing ending up with 20 I just need a day to stay home and clean to do something normal!!! Since we I say we because I stayed the whole time with Samantha in the hosp anyways since we have been home I have not stayed home one day I have had to go to the eye drs for 2 kids, the ped dr for Samantha ( dont know why guess he wanted to feel in the loop) 3 dental appointments thankful all in one day, and the school several times a day for the pass two days and they still want me to come many times a day for the next week or two.. I JUST WANT TO STAY HOME...oh and NOT to have the phone ring off the hook would be a nice thing too, tired of faxing the Dr, his mom calling me daily for check up like I dont know what I am doing..ok so I dont yet but I am learning and she is clueless to all of this so how can she tell me what I need to be doing???? my mom has been such a god sent to me the poor women gets all my vents.. what would I do with out mom :O)