Where to begin.ooops here is the rest of the story

This pas week has been a blur! Little did I know that my world would be turn upside down. It all started Thursday when I took Rachel and Samantha to a church baseball game. Samantha was acting kind of funny and was just sitting there watching the game I didnt think too much about it because it was hot and I thought that was why she didnt want to run around like usual. After being there about 30 mins she came up to me and told me she throw up but just a little. I thought it was the hot sun since she was acting normal otherwise. Then Friday came Samantha was fine all day till after dinner, thats when she went to lay down she said she didnt feel good. I thought it was the flu since her friend across the street had it she ran to the bathroom and hrow up again, then again so I started pushing fluids at her. She throw up one more time and went to sleep. Samantha slept on the love seat and I slept on the couch near her I didnt hear her get up durning the night and every time I checked on her she had no fever. Saturday morning as soon as she got up she ran to the bathroom and throw up again when she came out of the bathroom OMG she scared me her face was gray in color and she looked so thin so very thin. I called the Dr he told me to take her to the ER to have an i.v . Here I am still thinking she had the flu and that maybe she was Dehydrated.



Well the Dr didnt tell me too much here I am thinking after they re hydrated her she would be fine and we would go home the next thing I know the Dr comes back in the room and tells me my little 8 year old daughter is in critical condition and they were going to move her to a different hosp.. talk about shock!! I ran home grabbed a few things and off to the new hosp they were taking her to. As soon as I walked into her I.C.U room the Dr there looked at me and said "you know your daughter has type 1 Diabetes" I just felt numb I didnt know what to think or say I didnt even know if I was really hearing him right. I did manage to ask him if they were sure and why they thought this he told me her blood level from before she left the other hosp was 1050 that I was sooooooooooooooooo lucky that she wasnt in a coma...it just blew me away just the morning before she was playing acting normal how could this be??? Then I took a good look at my baby seeing her with 3 I.V bags in her arm heart monitors on her wires everywhere reality started sinking in... We stayed in the hosp together for 4 day and had so many nurses and Drs trying to tell me what to do for her care..the first 2 days are a blur I dont think I remember much of anything they told me then...but after the shock wore off and I stopped crying anytime Samantha wasnt looking I started understanding the things they were telling me the pass few days and everything new they told me..the first shot I had to give her I was scared to death I didnt want to hurt her but they made me do it and now I find myself doing it 4 times a day without even thinking, I cant even count how many finger pokes I am doing per day. Chuck right now is in denial but he is being so good with her, in fact he is babying her just a tad too much. I sure things will fall into place for all of us soon..

busy

I will finish updating after I get home today from the dentist for Anthony ( second visit this week for him) getting my hair cut and dropping Rachel off ..I hope that's all I have to do...lol.

of course I had to put in my 24 week pic but this is a few days late.

life at 23 weeks..lol

I havent been very good about keeping this up :O( I cant remember the last time I updated either. I am now 23 weeks 5 days they say at 24 weeks the baby is viable..yipie!!!! Of course each passing day is even better for the baby :O)

I am doing well having a lot of round ligament pains I never really had them before, but with this baby I am almost getting them daily...This little guy is really starting to be a mover the pass few days, he use to keep the kicking very very down low but now he is starting to move up a bit TG. Not too much new on the baby front other then my next appointment I get to have that lovely glucose test.yuck!!!

The kids are starting to get ready for school to start some are happy to go back to see their friends and what teachers they will get others ( Dillon) are not wanting to go back, did you know school is evil from what I was told by the one child..lol

Samantha just turned 8 a few days ago the poor kid had pink eye for her party, and she still has it now. Steven got it a week ago and was put on drops the Dr said if anyone else got it to "drop them" so I started giving it to her on her birthday. Now Steven started to show improvement within 24 hours Samantha's is STILL bad it doesnt seem to be getting any better. I am giving her till Monday then we go back to the Dr for her.

David leaves for Calf today he will be there for 3 weeks. He will be trainning the guys there on how to work on the osprey so that when they go to Iraq they will know what to do...They are hoping for this aircraft to be a big thing.. David is set to go to Iraq in Feb of 08 it use to seem so far away but now its just too close time seems like its ticking so fast!!! He is going to TRY to come home in Sept for 2 weeks I hope he gets to he hasnt been home since Dec :O( ok so he was home to go camping with us Memorial weekend but that just blew by!!!!

Chuck's work is starting to be a joke. Sometimes we get paid and sometimes we dont this pay period is a dontget paid one..grrrrr. I think he should start looking for a new job but then again there isnt anything out there and this start is #one for unempoyment. I am just hoping he can stay where he is at till the baby is born thats if we get paid. I am just scared about the insurance stuff and a new job..

This weeks new BIG belly pic I think I poped last night I swear!

21 weeks :O)

Ok so I am either a day late in writing this or a day early.lol

I am now 21 weeks according to my ultrasound. My due date now is Dec 10th Dr Wolfe said for sure I will have this baby before Christmas, I hope I have this little one in time that I can be home for Christmas I would hate to come home on Christmas day or Christmas eve. I am shooting for Dec 10 to the 20th I am always late.

The baby is really starting to pick up now still not vey hard more like a flick but its still cool and reassuring. I think I must of popped in the last few day I went to pick Christopher up from his bed and he pointed at my belly and said what it that..lol

Here is my 21 weeks belly shot July 30,2007

my ultrasound pictures from a few weeks ago

The tech was great he took his time and showed me everything and why he was looking for the things he was...He even took a lot of extra shots for me I think I have a total of 7 the babies full leg shot, foot prints, sucking the thumb, the skull shot, another profile and these two..he really put my mind at ease :O)

BABY MOVEMENT????

I swear I felt the baby twice today like a little thump the first time very faint and the second time like a bubble..Its so cool I cant wait till I feel it all the time!!!
Well I did have an OB appointment today till I got a call at 9:00 telling me more then likely he wouldnt be there because he had a delivery kind of reminded me of when I first started going to him. I could still go in today but I would have Amanda who does the U/S she is a PA-C???
I decided to wait till next week Wed and I will see DR Wolfe at 3:20. Diane did say something about a pap yikes I didnt think I would be getting an exam of any type again just had one in March, o well.
I did pick up the babies heartbeat twice today the first time it took me a bit and as soon as I found it the Dr's office called so I had to stop so later I tried again and I found it almost as soon as I put the wand there :O) still from 158 to 168 most of the time it hovers 163...Its the best sound in the world!!!!

Life has been crazy

Rachel made it through ALMOST the whole softball season at school without getting hurt till the last 2 weeks. On May 15th she was hit in the head by a softball that was batted by the coach right in the head...ouch she didnt pass out but had a major headache and didnt tell us anything else till Friday when she got hit again in the same spot by another ball and thought oh gee I should tell my mom that I have been having dizzy spells, headaches, and blackouts since the first hit( crazy child!) well she broke the news to me very late Friday / Saturday morning so off to the er we went and had an mri and she did have a mild Concussion. She was just told to take it easy and rest on gym for a week and we had to see the Dr on Moday.
We went camping for Memorial weekend which was great no one got hurt and the weather was nice and best of all David drove up to spend the weekend with us :O) I havent see him since Christmas.
Ok We just get back from Memorial weekend her first day back to school Tuesday, Rachel cuts her toe on a door at school I have to pick her up go back to the er and get 6 stiches. Wed I have an appointment for Christopher for his 3 year checkup and shots and one for Rachel for a tb test ( she wants to Volunteer at the hosp this summer) the Dr walks in the room and lets out a little laugh he hasnt seen her in years and now twice in less then a month and to top it off I have to take her back Friday to have her tb test looked at...sigh
I feel like this month has been spent at Drs offices or Hosp!!! Just think tomorrow is a new month and what to I have planned............................................................................................................
My ob's visit and taking Rachel in for a recheck...lol
Other then seeing Dr's we are tearing apart our kitchen so far he has the closet turned into a new area for the computer which looks very nice, the trim at the top of the walls and the Ceiling
painted...this little bit has taken Chuck MONTHS to do oh I hope and pray it doesnt take months to finish!!!!
On the baby news I am 12 weeks now ...wooooooo hoooooooo thats a big milestone for me :O)
I have a doppler and I can get the little one most of the tijme pretty easy sometimes I have to chase it down but in the long run I find it...lol the heartrate is between 158 and 168 :O) we wont talk about weight right now I am afride to hit the Dr's scale tomorrow...yikes I know its a lot!

9 weeks

I am 9 weeks today YIPPIE!! I dont feel too much different, yes I am still tired, hungry all the time and at times I still get that icky feeling if I dont eat but thats is starting to taper off a little.

My belly seems to be getting a bit bigger I keep wanting it to be huge to make me feel better..lol But for as far as I am its pretty big.
I bought one of those Hi-Bebe fetal dopplers I know I am going to make myself crazy with it..lol It has listed that SOME people can hear their babies at 8 weeks most at 10 others at 12..so you know in my mind I think I should hear it at 8...lol I tried yesterday and I could hear mine, tired today and I got 158 at few times but I never heard it the doppler just went to that for a few seconds and went back to 110 so I cant really count that can I.
Here is this weeks pictures

we have a heartbeat

I went in for my u/s May 4th. I was so scared and nervous my hands were shaking. Jasmin took me in and we talked for a bit then she told me I was getting the tech not Dr Wolfe but he would pop in :O( Well Melissa came in and was very nice to me and I told her I was very nervous she was very understanding. She is the one who adjusts the chair in a bad way..lol your in a chair with your behind way up in the air then your on your head and then she drops the bottom of the chair oh my talk about embarrassing! She put the wand in but had me in a way I couldn't really see anything then Dr Wolfe walked in at that second I looked again and I thought I seen a flicker I asked Dr Wolfe and he said yes it was I rolled over and gave him a big hug ( I warned him first) I was so happy. He said I look to be 8 weeks a day or two according to FF I am 8 weeks 2 days Melissa put down 8 weeks 1 day. When she was done I just about leaped off that chair they didn't like that much..lol When I went to the desk to make my next appointment the lady working ( I wish I knew her name) was so nice we talked for a little bit I go in June 1. Then Dr Wolfe popped around the corner and told me to tell Chuck he was sorry no twins this time..lol I gave him another hug and told him I was very happy to have one with a beating heart :O) Jenn then walked in and was teasing me about my big old van she knew I was there.. OI told her I had a heartbeat and gave her a hug :O) ok so I was hug happy. I called Chuck as soon as I got to the parking lot and gave him the good news.

Here's my baby :O) my Dr's ultrasound machine isnt the best but I didnt care as long as I could see that little heart beating

wooohoooo

I got my beta number back today its 30,209 :O) Right where it should be for how far along I am...I am so happy. Now I could use some major prayers that my ultrasound goes great that the baby has a nice strong heartbeat.

is morning sickness kicking in?

I am just not feeling right these days. I feel like I dont want to eat nothing seems good to eat but I do because I know I need to. So smells are starting to make me feel a bit icky but not bad. Today I had some cereal and it just didnt taste right. If I am going to get sick I would just rather get it and get it over with then having that nasty feeling.
Today is my first ob's visit :O) I am excited to go but I know there is not really anything he can tell me yet..other then the blood test and an exam that will be about it. But I am still happy about it..
I am also getting VERY moody and Chuck is on my hit list...lol I dont know I know its not all me but just about anything he says or does makes me mad these days.. Some things I am justifed for just some..lol

Yep I am :O)

if you noticed the ticker you can see I am pregnant!!!!! Yippie I am a bit scared I guess having a few m/c's can do that to you. But I am staying positive that this little one is going to grow nice strong and healthy. I have yet to tell many people I just like to see how long before they notice..lol to me I feel like I have a big sign on my belly saying pregnant. I am already popping out I know its not the baby just a lot of bloat, boy OMG its a lot! My 4 older kids know but not the mom's yet. My parents come home from Fl next week so I am going to be breaking the news to them soon.
My first ob appointment is this coming Wed in a way I cant wait and yet I can...I know hormones what can I say :O)

Going to TRY and post more..lol

Well my baby just turned 3 last Saturday and Rachel 15 ouch where did the time go????
Winter is dragging on but there seems to be an end in sight. I hear it will be in the 40's this weekend. Time to get my butt outside and start some walking or bike riding with Christopher. Chuck wants to start on the kitchen. I don't want to be any where in sight!!! We have already had fights over which tiles to use. The man tells me to pick out what I WANT..I did that we got home and he tells me he doesn't like it...sigh I am just going to let him pick it out cause I know if I do he will find some reason later why he shouldn't have done it that way or picked out that tile...men!!! Tomorrow he is going to drop the whole kitchen ceiling...I am LEAVING for the day...I don't even want to think of the mess!!!!!
Well its official the world now knows my son is a complete nut case...lol him and his buddies put a skit up of him doing strange things on his my space and you tube...most of it was funny but I could have done without seeing my son is a sorta thong..lol but hearing his laugh was priceless to me I miss that sooooooooooooooo much. If your brave enough here is the link to you tube...I am blushing already...lol
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=G3bkptxXypw&eurl=http%3A%2F%2Fprofile%2Emyspace%2Ecom%2Findex%2Ecfm%3Ffuseaction%3Duser%2Eviewprofile%26friendid%3D40017206%26MyToken%3Dd54639bf%2Db7d3%2D41f9%2D9114

once I upload my pics I will have Rachel's and Christopher's birthday party.. its just been a crazy week, I am so behind on my orders I have so much sewing and custom orders to do, I took a break for a week now I get to pay for it...lol

Ahhh potty training

Christopher is 2 almost 3 and my hubby thinks its time to start potty training. I know its time but I think I have been holding off cause itsmy baby, Once he is potty trained all the baby stage is gone :O(
I tried the other day to put his little behind on the toilet and the poor kid freaked so I thought I would make a big deal of this and take him to the store and let him pick out a potty chair and some new big boy undies..ok of off to the store we go he picks out a cute Winnie the Pooh chair ( kind of fitting its it getting a pooh chair..lol) so I put it in the cart and we head over to the underwear he picked out cars then looked at the two items in the cart and I think he put two and two together and started telling me over and over again "no toilet mommy, no potty"...lol he even told the lady ringing us up.
Got home put it together and tried to sit him down he ran off running butt naked telling me no toilet... hummm I don't think he likes the toilet..lol. I did get him to try but I am not going to puch him I want him to want to go not to freak out or think its a bad thing..

OTHER UPDATES...
Crystal my oldest is working!!!!!! YAY!! it took her 6 months to find a job.

David is working Hazmat right now. He will do that for 3 months, everyone has to take turns. But he will have more time to study so he can make corp :O)
He tried calling me the other day to tell me he had to dispose of some hazardous material and now he is glowing in the dark...lol While I was talking to him he let out a little yell then the phone went dead..he called me right back telling me that his buddy Iuro had a stun gun and was trying to shock him, well Iuro turned it off and David thought it would be funny to grab it and stun Iuro well I guess it takes awhile for the volts to run out the the gun and he stunned himself..lol this kid of mine is a real trip..love him to death :O)

My crazy hubby

The man makes me worry I swear. He is up north bear hunting right now. I cant help but worry the whole time. He is up there with his brother and best friend so the company is good but BEAR hunting and doing it with bows instead of shot guns what are they thinking???? The only thing that gives me piece of mind is that all of them are going to carry side arms with them.
why I worry.
1) hunting for a bear..Ok something that is bigger, heavier, and meaner then the person hunting it.
2) hunting for something that can eat you!
3) hunting with a bow to me seams like trying to use a tooth pick on the big hairy beast.
4) they are going way way up north some place they have never been..can we say LOST!!
5) if it were me just seeing a big bear out in the woods coming at me I would have a heart attack I wouldn't have to worry about it coming after me.

I could go on and on why I worry but it just makes me worry more... boy do I wish it were next Wed already!!!!

Did I ever tell anyone that I have a crazy kid??? Ok so most of my kids are a little crazy..LOL But David the one who is my Marine is nuts!!! He just called me on Sunday and told me of the new thing he learned. He told me he learned its a BAD ideal to dress up Osama and run around on a Marine base..LOL. He said he and his buddies thought it would be funny so of course you didn't have to twist his arm to do it..he got dressed up went running down the main street on the base when a HUGE Marine seen him and went running after him. David said he was never so scared he started pulling off his outfit for the guy would see he was just joking the guy was trying to tackle him to the ground but soon stopped after he realized who it was ..I guess David is famous for doing things like this...LOL I don't think my boy will ever grow up got to love him for it :O)

this is what he did..





this is my son when he is almost normal ( he loves this pic..wonder why)

Its been awhile

I thought I was going to be better at keeping a blog looks like I am not..lol
Life is a bit crazy right now. I don't have the time to think half the time. I am hoping now that school is in full swing I might just might have so time to get caught up on all my sewing and e-bay stuff.
Today is going to be another crazy day..church at 11:00 then as soon as I get home I have to take the 2 dogs to petco for shots. I hope that goes fast right after that we have bowling..yuck at 3:00 but we have to leave by 2:20 to get there on time..I HATE going bowling. If the dogs take too long then I will miss bowling this week...I love having a reason not to go..lol
I really need to stay home I am so behind on orders, to get caught up I will have to chain myself to my sewing machines for days...sigh.

I swear my kids are nuts..

I wonder at times if other people kids do the strange things mine do.
Adam my 12 year old came in laughing yesterday telling me he was riding his bike and had so much fun then he went on to tell me " you know those cars with the signs on it drivers ed" " well I had so much fun chasing after one".....OMG the thoughts that went through my head like you could be hit by the car your making the driver a neverous reck and most of all WHY would you do that.. I swear the things this kid thinks of to do makes me wonder at time.

I should find out in a few days is David will be home for Memorial weekend and if so how many guys he is bring home with him. We will be going camping for the weekend so I hope he only brings one extra the room is kinda cramped. For Easter he had two guys with him but I dont think he is bringing either of the guys he brought then, at this rate I am going to met all of his classmates :O) he graduates this week, soon he will be out in the fleet which scares me I hope and pray that he doesnt get deployed to Iraq anytime soon!!! His buddy Mike is there right now, and two of my nephews are going in Sept.

Lance Corp.

David made Lance Corp last Wed I am so proud of him. He is in N.C and should be for some time yet. He is hoping to come home for Easter but as usual we never find out till the last min, one of the things I hate about the military! His girlfriend is going down to see him soon wish I could, the only base I have been on was the one at Paris Island and that wasn't anything special. I would like to see his room David said its like an apt now, meet his friends I hear so much about then and I would love to see the plane he works on, which is the Offspry. David says its cool :O)

Saturday and Sunday my fabric obession got worse as if it could...lol
Hit the sales at Walmarts and ended up buying about $50.00 worth of fabric then on Sunday I just had to run into Jo Ann's for snaps only, well those snaps ended up costing me $58.00...lol but I had fun and I will use it someday ;O)

For the sad news :O( Nancy passed away on Saturday. We knew it was coming but its still so hard Don her hubby isn't doing very well. We have known for the pass 6 months that this day would be here soon, but it just seems too soon now. This makes the 4th funeral I have been to in less then a month! I guess I haven't started this year out very well now have I. I had the miscarriage right after the second week in Jan, then my sister was told she might have cancer 2 weeks ago and all the deaths....I am hoping and praying the rest of this year is better!

limbo

Right now I am in limbo.
Limbo in that I am not ttc and I am not tta right now either. I just had my 3 rd m/c 2 weeks ago I was 9 weeks when I had a D&C. 8 weeks when I started spotting, one day short of 9 weeks when I went in for an u/s and found out that I either had a blighted ovum or the baby stopped growing within the first few weeks :O( .
So right now I am just waiting to see if my body will get back on track on its own this time. This was my second m/c in less then 6 months my other one was 10 weeks with twins :O(

I wonder at times if I should just stop trying for another baby. I think at times its going to happen again, and I dont know if my heart can take it. But then I look at my kids and I know its worth it! I just cant picture not having another baby in this house. Ya I know some day I am going to have to face that fact but then again my home will be filled with my grandchild by then :O)

First post

I don't even know where to start. I am Debbie mom to 10 wonderful kids
Crystal is 21 thinking about going into the Navy but for now she is working as a Pharmacy assistant.
David is 20 and in the Marines, he just finished up most of his training he works on an aircraft called the Offspry.
Anthony 15 is on the wrestling team at school and is pretty good, guess its all his brothers he gets to pratice on..lol
Rachel 13 has dreams of becoming a Dr. and with all the medical shows she watches I think she is well on her way!
Adam 12 my gentle soul he is an old man in a child's body. He is always the helpful caring one
Dillon 10, oh my what can I say he is ALWAYS right no matter what
Nicholas 8, he is my Marine in training
Samantha 6, she is the second mother here in the house...but just a bit too bossy
Steven 4, He thinks he can keep up with the older kids no one has told him he is only 4...lol
Christopher 1, he is a mamma's boy which is ok with me. He is such a good little boy.

Chuck my hubby who I have been married to for 24 years is the love of my life...makes me crazy at times but I couldn't see it any other way!